Bottom line, I have finally started my screen acting courses this Saturday and will have it twice a month for now.
The passion to acting appeared this summer when I was reading “Year of Yes” of Shonda Rhimes. She is a producer of Si and Nancy, Inventing Anna, Scandal etc. She described this whole industry in such a charming and challenging manner simultaneously that I couldn’t dance into it. If you know me, you know how much addiction I do have to everything new and hard. However, she was not the only source of inspiration as the end of August was time when we finished watching Killing Eve with Jodie Comer and Sandra Oh.
Let's get real, I cant manage to be in Hollywood tomorrow, the day after tomorrow or even in a month. But I can dream of it. Dreams usually save me during the hardest times. So why not to put my creative bonds into some sort of an adventurous acting journey?
So I have started applying for castings, have some of them being booked in other cities, but I am still not sure how it works, so no guarantee I am gonna enjoy the process.
On Sat Paul, the founder of BAFTA courses I go to, asked us a questions - what is your intention? One girl immediately answered that “Success”. She meant success in terms of becoming the best actress on the national level. And then Paul did’t continue with other definitions, but stuck to this one and gave us the homework “To define what is your intention? What success if for you?”.
At first I was scared as I did’t have that definition of intention. I had barely any thoughts related to success. Of course I want everyone to know me :) but thats just a child’s impulse. After a short thought once we started looking at a blue screen and creating emptiness inside us, which was our next task, I had nothing in my head accept the idea that I want to be driven. I have no huge plans, as everything looks possible to fulfil. I know that during my life I will change dozens of professions even more hobbies. But the only thing I have tremor about is absence of passion. So for me no matter what the result would be, if I am driven during the process, it is worth it.